.....thinking

i have so much on my mind right now. i have so much school work to do this month and im scared about school. i think i wanna change my major because i havent been as into my elementary ed. classes. I have been more interested in smaller kids, like preschool age. drake just got a job which i so wonderful, but im so scared he is just going to forget about me because he will be so busy at work. im so scared for this summer because im scared things will fall apart. he already told me that we probably wouldnt talk everyday and i would just have to get over it. its awful that i remember everything he says to me but i do. and i know he said it like awhile back but im scared he would still mean it if i brought it up. i dont wanna loose him at all. i dont think i could handle it. this is such an awful time of the year im ready for things to calm down and go back to normal. i cannot concentrate on anything and i have an 8 page paper due tomorrow that i have two pages for....i cant do it...