Journal

Okay so i need to write because i i know i have been being whiny lately in all my classes. Its not senioritis i don't think... but its because i do want to leave this place but I guess im scared too. I'm going to miss seeing all of my normal friends especially the ones that are still going to be here and not even off at college. I have made so many good friends especially joining the band but even in this class, i came into it knowing few people and I'm coming out with new great friends especially Jenny because we are so much alike. I mean today when mrs. D said," Becky you really came back from break whiny." i knew i did because that meant we only had 9 weeks to go and we were done. I really like this class cause we do so little but it seems like so much and i have really enjoyed it. When Mrs. D told us to stop reading today and i didn't want to( for once) and then i was being loud and complaining, i actually felt like crying because in college they don't care what you do there, I mean i just started tearing up but my book was funny enough to stop me! Which off topic i finished it tonight and it was so sad at the end because the characters in my book have so much freedom and do what they want and then they all split off and graduate... i really don't have any friends like that. I think the only one I will really be dying to see when I leave is Justin just because he has always been there for me. Not as much this year because we had a really rough time this year with each other and everything going on but still I love him and he just always been there when i needed him but now he won't be because he will be moving on too. I don't want all this to happen just yet because unlike everyone else who has a summer i don't i have school to attend at Western because i cannot take tests and did horrible on my SAT's so i have to do a summer program... I was just talking to my friend Jesse who i love him as a friend so much cause he is just there for me but he just told me that people their freshman year miss what they had in High school so they come home every weekend. You need to stay there and go home on breaks. Once u are in college you will realize how much you do not miss high school. Jesse is good for advice! And right now i am avoiding HW as always for psychology. SO i think I'm done for now I think y last words are going to be a quote for Dr. Seuss out of my book sooo:"Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened."