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I have made the best friends up here ever, but I feel like I cannot talk to anyone up here yet. I feel like i am back on my high school bus because everyone STILL makes fun of the way i talk. I cannot help it and i don't like it. It really upsets me. I really don't like it. It hurts my feelings a lot and I do not like it. I don't know what else is going on but Ryan has not texted me all night. Its really weird because everything was fine this afternoon when we were talking, but like always whenever i find a guy i like i come on too strong of course. Its a lot harder than it looks to get over someone you have loved for 3 years and coming to college i wanted to start new but still be friends with him. I still love him, but I know i need to move on. I am trying so hard but ya know it never works out for me. My roommate situation is just horrible. She hates me and keeps making comment at my friends towards me. We haven't talking in two weeks, but whatever. i give up on tryign to make the peace. I have to sya the worst part right now is me failing english! I sat in my teachers office and cried because i am. it really sucks. But basically the whole point is that right no I have locked myself in my room nto talking to my friends and i hate that but it really upsets me a lot when people make fun of the way i talk. I know they think they are just joking but I dont take it like that. i am just tired of all these stupid little situations and I just want to be happy with a roommate and all my friends. I do not want to be in high school anymore.