New York

New York

Spring break round 1.. DING!

Amazingly i have lasted threw these long two days already. I have been so tired last night I couldn't enjoy staying up late because we have already done so much AND theres more to come. Yesterday, Mom and I went to Charlotte and shopped ALL day... We went to an educational store that was amazing, its called Lakeshore Educational. It was huge and it had everything you wanted in there. It was fun because my moms theme or her classroom next year is Jungle but mostly monkeys, so we found just about everything with monkey's on it. Monkeys are the theme of my room at home so I was enjoyign loooking for everything she needed, which will soon be passed down to me. :D We went to Michaels and i got a fuzzy poster... which i collect and i have a ton of them but this one is new. :D Then we went to Target but just looked real quick at the dollar spot, and after headed over to A.C. Moore. We found my prom frame and it is so beautiful! Afterwards we went to Wide shoe wearhouse for mom to get her a pair of shoes for my brothers wedding in May! She got real lucky because she would have never found shoes like she did there. She also took me out to eat lunch after all that adventure, We went to this great place called Salsa and they had wonderful mexican food. When we got home i just kinda cooled out and went outside to swing on my nephews swing set. I did so guard work, listened to music and just enjoyed the beautiful weather we are having.... Ugh Ill write later i need to go help mom now... Laundry sucks, i dont know if i can do laundry in college!

Are you feelign low? Why?

Yes, of course i am feeling low. I was really lookign foward to New York and beign able to be with all of my friends especially because i dont get to see them much anymore. But who i want to be with and hang out with will not want to hang out with mea nd it makes me upset because i lov ehima dn his family, but he will be with the chourus makign me jealous because i am. He use to only want to be with me and tell everyone he wanted to marry me but now he never talks to me of hangs out with me. Men are so stupid and confusing and ugh they just make me so mad. I know of three guys that i am very close to that actually treat gurls right and one i treated horrible .. Jesse, Michael, and Josh. They are such greta guys and jesse i treated horrible and the rest are just great friends that i know treat everyone right no matter what. okay enough guy bashign then being nice for now :D

What am i putting off right now???

I am putting off doing this blog...

Journal #3

I have to say I use the word regret scarcely because eveything that i have done and reality behind it has taught me something new. Lessons have been learned and things that I did then i will not do again. I learned to accept what i have then because you loose something that was just right for you. I lost something important to me and never understood what i had until i lost it. A lot of people say that they regret things from the past and want to go back in time but, i dont i wanted to be able to learn lessons and for once think for myself and not make the smae mistake in the future with new thigns that are brought to the table. I want to be able to see the bright side of things and not second guess myself on everything and in the end make the wrong choice anyways. In life you just have to go for it and do not look back on anything and especially be carefull how you use the word regret...

Journal #2

I feel the need to write a journal, besides that fact it is required, I am not in a good mood and writing right now is the only way i can express myself. Prom is going down the drain right now, we do not have our limo because of two people and it really pissed me off because his excuse is that he does not check his voice mail.... FREAKIN CHECK IT THEN! I really upset this is my senior prom I dont get to do what i want and now we probably won't have a limo all because of his stupidity! My senior prom is going to suck, which I sorta did ruin it with the person I wanted to go with. I am the only senior in our limo and we planned on having fun... I don't knwo if that is going to happen anymore. I am so stressed out all because of prom and it is still 4 weeks away! My dress is getting altered Thursday finally because it of course is my responisbility to call u pthe lady to get it altered when i barely have time to breath with everything i have to do to FINALLY leave for college. I have to say, Sunday June 22nd is goingto be the happiest day of my life because i finally leave my parents and all the stupid people in Lincolnton behind! GOODBYE! When i get out of college this is the last place i would come back to, i would move to Ohio in with my brother in sister before i go back home, or even back to Florida with my grandma or brother and almost fiance. I am so tired of it here and if i had a choice i would be out of here after graduation and be going to UF. I could only dream though. Three hours away will have to do for now because thats all I can afford.

Promp Generator- classwork

I remember when.... I remember when i did not talk to anyone for a whole week. Everyday i walked threw the halls silence and sat in class and never anwsered or responded to anything, even in english where all my friends were. My boyfriend, Jesse, at the time was real worried about me that i would do something that i regret, I never did. Everyday Jesse would check on me and just watch me to make sure. He never understood what i went threw that week especially since it was the last week before exams. I was upset because so much had happened that week. My best friends dad died of a heart attack, i am close with the whole family and it was really hard to hear her crying on the phone with me. I told her she needed to call me later because her mom needed her and she was scared and I understood that, yet I did not. I have never really had to deal with death because no one close to me had died. At the same time my great aunt was in the hosptial, she had been battling breast cancer, ovarian cancer, and one other type of cancer. She was very sick and week and two days later she died.She battled everything for thirty years, and it was really hard to hear that she was gone. I had not seen her in three yearsand i was so unhappy that i had to hear it from my step dad who did not even know her, he pissed me off that night. I think that entire week I did not sleep one bit. That was just a stressful week because that Thursday i found out I did not get captin like i had hoped and prayed for and i felt so bad,like i did not deserve it and was useless in guard and all during the season EVERYONE made me feel like that constantly. After i found out i felt guilty treating Jesse the way i did and it caused us to break up the week after. I hated the end of last year, I would freak out about the stupidest things, like a paper i did bad on in Ms. Orozs's and had to go back and redo when i did not understand anything. That was a week I remember very well, even though I wish I did not, that was the point in my teenage years that i went through my teenage crisis, and there are a lot of things i wish i did not do.

Journal #1

So i thought to myself, why not start early this week on my blog... So i am going to and not be lazy like normal. This weekend started off sucking, then it just got weird. Friday, i over heard two of my friends talking and one of them had lied to me about that night cause i was suppose to go babysit with him then he told me he wasnt going to. LIER! I was so mad at him, i was cussing up a storm and in a rampage of outrage that he would do that to me... even though it shouldnt really surprise me. So friday night i basically sat at home and did homework, wahooo.... and passed out at about 10 pm. Saturday.. what did i do. I slept in til about 1000 and then called my g(my grandma: its her nickname) and i actually made breakfast for me, mom, and staci(sister) I never do that. Mom and i did the food shopping saturday which was kinda weird cause im use to going on sunday but whatever. We got a bunch of stuff im going to need to NY which im so excited about. For lunch mom and i had ice cream sundaes from Dunkin DOnuts! YUMMY! then for dinner my sister and i went out and picked up chinese for them( Yuck) and Taco Bell for me! I had such a nutritional day! :D That night was kinda fun because we figured otu my hair style for prom and my brothers wedding! Its going to be so pretty. Today was just kinda of .. blah day just because i worked on my 1st period project this morning, then i went out to cookout to meet a bunch of my friends fro lunch and discuss prom stuff, then i get home and start getting weird Txts from one of my friends saying things but it wasnt him! I was so creeped out by that! Tonight we are celebrationg my nephews birthday with his Elmo cake that im going to be digging into! YAY! SO i think i did good today, im gettin alot accomplished, except the paper with the bulittien board for 1st period i dont want to do that. I might even start on my flip chart and the project we were suppose to do friday! YAY! and we get to blog this week! YAY! again

Journal #4

Okay so in Psycology we are studying teenage crisis, I thought this would be a great topic for my blog just because i have gone through so many. Mine is about a family memeber who joined the army and left right before my brithday, then left for Iraq 2 weeks before my birthday... Happy Birthday to me. My big brither Mike was always there for me and never left my side. he was my protector and the greatest brother because he always spoiled me! :D After 9/11 happened he realized he was nto going to go to college right away, so he joined the army in spite of everything that had happened. I did not want him to leave but he was 18 and it was his choice. I was so scared for him and never wanted him to leave my side and just be there for when i grew up. After he graduated he stayed the summer, but not long after that in August he left to train for the army. As if it was not hard enough saying goodbye to him, we were moving at the end of September! I was so mad at my parents because nothign new was going to happend, my dad was not getting a pay raise they just wanted him to transfer. Of course we were already into school and i even had a boyfriend that made me so happy! I fit in where i was at but NC was a completley different place. I felt like i was deserting my family in Florida. 7th grade year had gone by adn Mike was with a company called the Stryker Birgade. Which those are types of vehicles that are double armor plated. In july he recieved notice that his unit was being deployed in august. Two weeks before my brithday my mom flew to Washington state to sya goodbye but she would nto let me go with her... I was so upset even though i did recieve a call from him and a letter which sorta made me feel better!

Journal #3

So i almost forgot about our journals due today because im just not having a good day already! I am sitting her at Gaston College at 7:15 in the morning and class does not start till 755, and im am sitting here all becuas ei dont have a car and probably wont get one! My parents promise they are gonna get me one but ya knwo its still all my sisters fault that i dnt have one! She is still living at our house and expects my parents to do everythign for her when she is 21. going to comsmotology school, and DOES NOT have a job! it pisses me off because i could have a car but she owes my parents so much money that they can afford me! And last night realy got me thinking how much i miss dance and just a bunch of other things. Dance was apart of my life since i was 4 and i did it for 9 years until people up here ruined it for mejust because i am ugly and they just didnt like me. I am actually missing colorguard cause now all i do is sit at home and be bored all night. I mean i am going to bed at 930! i never do that especially when i having something to look foward to. And i knwo this is bad to say, but i really do miss my best friends krysta and justin! They were always there for me and now i never see them or talk to them EVER. Krysta is too involved with her BF and justin is just i dunno what he is doing.... I guess on a happier note i am counting down the days till i get my ugly braces off which will be in May, i still have ot wait about a month and a half which sucks but not really. I cannot wait til i go to college and leave this place i hae lincolnton wait no make it bigger, i hate north carolina.

Im innocent i tell you, its all the dogs fault! How can you blame me, the sweet, precious, innocent kitten!pst... the dog is out back playing it cool, GO GET HIM!

Excersie 4

Oh no what have i done, how could I murder my bes friend. Gabbi did not understand why she had done it, but Zoey had just made her so mad! Gabbi was standing alone in Zoe's room with blood on her hands and the weapon five feet away. She was completely lost and felt terrible about what she had done. Gabbi stood there and thought, how could I kill my best friend over a guy, guys are not worth that much. Zoey meant so much to me and there are so many guys in the world. Yet, Zoey should have thought about me and my feeling before she acted on him. Maybe the next victim should be Hunter, he's the on that came on to her! I still cannot believe what i have done, Zoey my best friend is gone and it is all my fault! Oh no! some one is coming what do i do? Gabbi stands there alone with Zoey laying on the floor helpless as she hears small footsteps coming toward the door. The room is pitch black and there is no place to hide. One small window is in the corner of the room but there might not be enough time to reach it with the clutter holding up Gabbi's movement. Gabbi scurries threw the room trying to find the closet to hide in and when she does and it opens a pile of clothes and games and toys falls on her. Zoey's mom enters the room where she finds Zoey lying there helplessly and in the right corner of the room a heap of clothes on the floor with movement under them. Gabbi is caught with her bright red bloody hands as if she showered in blood and the murder weapon, which was a frying pan, laying next to Zoey and had Gabbi's fingerprints on the handle.

Free Write

Okay so basically today has been okay... The only bad thing is that i had to sit in the seminar room because of the writing test. I was in there for an hour sitting doing nothing at all! We had to sit in silence and I was so hungry and bored, and i missed math class. I love math! Psycology was fun though because we have been talking about adolecense and that is my favorite stage to discuss. We were talking about the different effects if teenagers and why they do the things they do. Also, we made a big chart about what influences teens. We basically all agreed that peers, media, technology influence what teenagers do. And of course creatvie writing is amazing i love to blog and spend time on the computer. Blogging really helps say what you cannot. I will say last night i was very stressed otu and was not in the mood for people making jokes. I found a limo and got a quote and its a ford escalde and its only $1200 for 6 hours! Which is amazing and i got stressed because one of my friends told me that he didnt knwo him and his date were going and my other friend was not sure whether or not they were going! I was going crazy and got mad and got off. I didn't mena anything by it just i cannot talk to people when im mad and stressed, but thank god everything has worked out!

Fried Green Tomatoes

1) Ninny's stories inspired Evelyn to do so much for herself and others. Evelyn finally stood up to her husband and acted like a real person or how Evelyn would say it "Tawanda". She became more sure of herself and was not afraid to be who she really is. She began working out and not letting herself get any fatter than she already was. 2) The outer frame story is when Ninny was telling Evelyn about her story and it includes everything that was going on between Evelyn and her husband, and what Evelyn did for herself. The main characters are Ninny, Evelyn, Evelyn's husband. 3) The inner frame story is all the flash backs. The story about Idgie and Ruth, that is the inner frame story. The main characters are Idgie, Ruth, Big George, Frank Bennett, Sispys, Buddy, Buddy jr. 4) What is ironic about Frank Bennett's death is that Sipsy would be the last person you would expect to kill Frank Bennett, she is a simple black women that obeys orders. 5)I think my favorite vignette was the food fight in the kitchen with Idgie and Ruth. The way they described the food fight every last bit of the food being thrown! It was amazing! 6)Buddy's Death: Buddy was frantically running across the railroad to catch sweet Ruth's hat. He thought nothing could stop him, especially while he was trying to impress her. On the bridge above Idgie and Ruth watched carefully not taking their eyes off for a second. The hat blows in the wind moving father away from the bridge where Idgie and Ruth have not taken their eyes off of him. Standing above laughing suddley as Buddy runs another 10 feet to finally grab the hat off the tracks. What he does not realize is that where he stuck his foot, was in between the tracks. His foot would not budge one bit, he keep tugging and tugging at it. Finally he turned around and gave a small grin and a wave not expressing any worries. When he turned back around he continued to tug until.... he heard a train whistle and he began to worry and rush to get his foot out! He had on long black boots that tied up from the middle to the top and it would take a minute to get them untied. Buddy tired and tried to go as fast as a lion, but just as he was about to pull his foot out, the train crushed his helpless body and did not have a chance to be removed from the tracks. Idgie tired to run down to the train track in a frightful panic but the townsmen held her back and all the heard was he yelling " BUDDY!!"