Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Promp Generator- classwork

I remember when.... I remember when i did not talk to anyone for a whole week. Everyday i walked threw the halls silence and sat in class and never anwsered or responded to anything, even in english where all my friends were. My boyfriend, Jesse, at the time was real worried about me that i would do something that i regret, I never did. Everyday Jesse would check on me and just watch me to make sure. He never understood what i went threw that week especially since it was the last week before exams. I was upset because so much had happened that week. My best friends dad died of a heart attack, i am close with the whole family and it was really hard to hear her crying on the phone with me. I told her she needed to call me later because her mom needed her and she was scared and I understood that, yet I did not. I have never really had to deal with death because no one close to me had died. At the same time my great aunt was in the hosptial, she had been battling breast cancer, ovarian cancer, and one other type of cancer. She was very sick and week and two days later she died.She battled everything for thirty years, and it was really hard to hear that she was gone. I had not seen her in three yearsand i was so unhappy that i had to hear it from my step dad who did not even know her, he pissed me off that night. I think that entire week I did not sleep one bit. That was just a stressful week because that Thursday i found out I did not get captin like i had hoped and prayed for and i felt so bad,like i did not deserve it and was useless in guard and all during the season EVERYONE made me feel like that constantly. After i found out i felt guilty treating Jesse the way i did and it caused us to break up the week after. I hated the end of last year, I would freak out about the stupidest things, like a paper i did bad on in Ms. Orozs's and had to go back and redo when i did not understand anything. That was a week I remember very well, even though I wish I did not, that was the point in my teenage years that i went through my teenage crisis, and there are a lot of things i wish i did not do.

3 comments:

Jenny said...

oh, thats sounds like a really bad time. Life stinks sometimes.

Caitlin said...

Sounds rough.

Why did it cause you and jesse to break up?

Anonymous said...

wow, you did go through a lot in ONE week! How did it make you stronger?

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