New York

New York

Spring break round 1.. DING!

Amazingly i have lasted threw these long two days already. I have been so tired last night I couldn't enjoy staying up late because we have already done so much AND theres more to come. Yesterday, Mom and I went to Charlotte and shopped ALL day... We went to an educational store that was amazing, its called Lakeshore Educational. It was huge and it had everything you wanted in there. It was fun because my moms theme or her classroom next year is Jungle but mostly monkeys, so we found just about everything with monkey's on it. Monkeys are the theme of my room at home so I was enjoyign loooking for everything she needed, which will soon be passed down to me. :D We went to Michaels and i got a fuzzy poster... which i collect and i have a ton of them but this one is new. :D Then we went to Target but just looked real quick at the dollar spot, and after headed over to A.C. Moore. We found my prom frame and it is so beautiful! Afterwards we went to Wide shoe wearhouse for mom to get her a pair of shoes for my brothers wedding in May! She got real lucky because she would have never found shoes like she did there. She also took me out to eat lunch after all that adventure, We went to this great place called Salsa and they had wonderful mexican food. When we got home i just kinda cooled out and went outside to swing on my nephews swing set. I did so guard work, listened to music and just enjoyed the beautiful weather we are having.... Ugh Ill write later i need to go help mom now... Laundry sucks, i dont know if i can do laundry in college!

Are you feelign low? Why?

Yes, of course i am feeling low. I was really lookign foward to New York and beign able to be with all of my friends especially because i dont get to see them much anymore. But who i want to be with and hang out with will not want to hang out with mea nd it makes me upset because i lov ehima dn his family, but he will be with the chourus makign me jealous because i am. He use to only want to be with me and tell everyone he wanted to marry me but now he never talks to me of hangs out with me. Men are so stupid and confusing and ugh they just make me so mad. I know of three guys that i am very close to that actually treat gurls right and one i treated horrible .. Jesse, Michael, and Josh. They are such greta guys and jesse i treated horrible and the rest are just great friends that i know treat everyone right no matter what. okay enough guy bashign then being nice for now :D

What am i putting off right now???

I am putting off doing this blog...

Journal #3

I have to say I use the word regret scarcely because eveything that i have done and reality behind it has taught me something new. Lessons have been learned and things that I did then i will not do again. I learned to accept what i have then because you loose something that was just right for you. I lost something important to me and never understood what i had until i lost it. A lot of people say that they regret things from the past and want to go back in time but, i dont i wanted to be able to learn lessons and for once think for myself and not make the smae mistake in the future with new thigns that are brought to the table. I want to be able to see the bright side of things and not second guess myself on everything and in the end make the wrong choice anyways. In life you just have to go for it and do not look back on anything and especially be carefull how you use the word regret...

Journal #2

I feel the need to write a journal, besides that fact it is required, I am not in a good mood and writing right now is the only way i can express myself. Prom is going down the drain right now, we do not have our limo because of two people and it really pissed me off because his excuse is that he does not check his voice mail.... FREAKIN CHECK IT THEN! I really upset this is my senior prom I dont get to do what i want and now we probably won't have a limo all because of his stupidity! My senior prom is going to suck, which I sorta did ruin it with the person I wanted to go with. I am the only senior in our limo and we planned on having fun... I don't knwo if that is going to happen anymore. I am so stressed out all because of prom and it is still 4 weeks away! My dress is getting altered Thursday finally because it of course is my responisbility to call u pthe lady to get it altered when i barely have time to breath with everything i have to do to FINALLY leave for college. I have to say, Sunday June 22nd is goingto be the happiest day of my life because i finally leave my parents and all the stupid people in Lincolnton behind! GOODBYE! When i get out of college this is the last place i would come back to, i would move to Ohio in with my brother in sister before i go back home, or even back to Florida with my grandma or brother and almost fiance. I am so tired of it here and if i had a choice i would be out of here after graduation and be going to UF. I could only dream though. Three hours away will have to do for now because thats all I can afford.

Promp Generator- classwork

I remember when.... I remember when i did not talk to anyone for a whole week. Everyday i walked threw the halls silence and sat in class and never anwsered or responded to anything, even in english where all my friends were. My boyfriend, Jesse, at the time was real worried about me that i would do something that i regret, I never did. Everyday Jesse would check on me and just watch me to make sure. He never understood what i went threw that week especially since it was the last week before exams. I was upset because so much had happened that week. My best friends dad died of a heart attack, i am close with the whole family and it was really hard to hear her crying on the phone with me. I told her she needed to call me later because her mom needed her and she was scared and I understood that, yet I did not. I have never really had to deal with death because no one close to me had died. At the same time my great aunt was in the hosptial, she had been battling breast cancer, ovarian cancer, and one other type of cancer. She was very sick and week and two days later she died.She battled everything for thirty years, and it was really hard to hear that she was gone. I had not seen her in three yearsand i was so unhappy that i had to hear it from my step dad who did not even know her, he pissed me off that night. I think that entire week I did not sleep one bit. That was just a stressful week because that Thursday i found out I did not get captin like i had hoped and prayed for and i felt so bad,like i did not deserve it and was useless in guard and all during the season EVERYONE made me feel like that constantly. After i found out i felt guilty treating Jesse the way i did and it caused us to break up the week after. I hated the end of last year, I would freak out about the stupidest things, like a paper i did bad on in Ms. Orozs's and had to go back and redo when i did not understand anything. That was a week I remember very well, even though I wish I did not, that was the point in my teenage years that i went through my teenage crisis, and there are a lot of things i wish i did not do.

Journal #1

So i thought to myself, why not start early this week on my blog... So i am going to and not be lazy like normal. This weekend started off sucking, then it just got weird. Friday, i over heard two of my friends talking and one of them had lied to me about that night cause i was suppose to go babysit with him then he told me he wasnt going to. LIER! I was so mad at him, i was cussing up a storm and in a rampage of outrage that he would do that to me... even though it shouldnt really surprise me. So friday night i basically sat at home and did homework, wahooo.... and passed out at about 10 pm. Saturday.. what did i do. I slept in til about 1000 and then called my g(my grandma: its her nickname) and i actually made breakfast for me, mom, and staci(sister) I never do that. Mom and i did the food shopping saturday which was kinda weird cause im use to going on sunday but whatever. We got a bunch of stuff im going to need to NY which im so excited about. For lunch mom and i had ice cream sundaes from Dunkin DOnuts! YUMMY! then for dinner my sister and i went out and picked up chinese for them( Yuck) and Taco Bell for me! I had such a nutritional day! :D That night was kinda fun because we figured otu my hair style for prom and my brothers wedding! Its going to be so pretty. Today was just kinda of .. blah day just because i worked on my 1st period project this morning, then i went out to cookout to meet a bunch of my friends fro lunch and discuss prom stuff, then i get home and start getting weird Txts from one of my friends saying things but it wasnt him! I was so creeped out by that! Tonight we are celebrationg my nephews birthday with his Elmo cake that im going to be digging into! YAY! SO i think i did good today, im gettin alot accomplished, except the paper with the bulittien board for 1st period i dont want to do that. I might even start on my flip chart and the project we were suppose to do friday! YAY! and we get to blog this week! YAY! again

Journal #4

Okay so in Psycology we are studying teenage crisis, I thought this would be a great topic for my blog just because i have gone through so many. Mine is about a family memeber who joined the army and left right before my brithday, then left for Iraq 2 weeks before my birthday... Happy Birthday to me. My big brither Mike was always there for me and never left my side. he was my protector and the greatest brother because he always spoiled me! :D After 9/11 happened he realized he was nto going to go to college right away, so he joined the army in spite of everything that had happened. I did not want him to leave but he was 18 and it was his choice. I was so scared for him and never wanted him to leave my side and just be there for when i grew up. After he graduated he stayed the summer, but not long after that in August he left to train for the army. As if it was not hard enough saying goodbye to him, we were moving at the end of September! I was so mad at my parents because nothign new was going to happend, my dad was not getting a pay raise they just wanted him to transfer. Of course we were already into school and i even had a boyfriend that made me so happy! I fit in where i was at but NC was a completley different place. I felt like i was deserting my family in Florida. 7th grade year had gone by adn Mike was with a company called the Stryker Birgade. Which those are types of vehicles that are double armor plated. In july he recieved notice that his unit was being deployed in august. Two weeks before my brithday my mom flew to Washington state to sya goodbye but she would nto let me go with her... I was so upset even though i did recieve a call from him and a letter which sorta made me feel better!

Journal #3

So i almost forgot about our journals due today because im just not having a good day already! I am sitting her at Gaston College at 7:15 in the morning and class does not start till 755, and im am sitting here all becuas ei dont have a car and probably wont get one! My parents promise they are gonna get me one but ya knwo its still all my sisters fault that i dnt have one! She is still living at our house and expects my parents to do everythign for her when she is 21. going to comsmotology school, and DOES NOT have a job! it pisses me off because i could have a car but she owes my parents so much money that they can afford me! And last night realy got me thinking how much i miss dance and just a bunch of other things. Dance was apart of my life since i was 4 and i did it for 9 years until people up here ruined it for mejust because i am ugly and they just didnt like me. I am actually missing colorguard cause now all i do is sit at home and be bored all night. I mean i am going to bed at 930! i never do that especially when i having something to look foward to. And i knwo this is bad to say, but i really do miss my best friends krysta and justin! They were always there for me and now i never see them or talk to them EVER. Krysta is too involved with her BF and justin is just i dunno what he is doing.... I guess on a happier note i am counting down the days till i get my ugly braces off which will be in May, i still have ot wait about a month and a half which sucks but not really. I cannot wait til i go to college and leave this place i hae lincolnton wait no make it bigger, i hate north carolina.

Im innocent i tell you, its all the dogs fault! How can you blame me, the sweet, precious, innocent kitten!pst... the dog is out back playing it cool, GO GET HIM!

Excersie 4

Oh no what have i done, how could I murder my bes friend. Gabbi did not understand why she had done it, but Zoey had just made her so mad! Gabbi was standing alone in Zoe's room with blood on her hands and the weapon five feet away. She was completely lost and felt terrible about what she had done. Gabbi stood there and thought, how could I kill my best friend over a guy, guys are not worth that much. Zoey meant so much to me and there are so many guys in the world. Yet, Zoey should have thought about me and my feeling before she acted on him. Maybe the next victim should be Hunter, he's the on that came on to her! I still cannot believe what i have done, Zoey my best friend is gone and it is all my fault! Oh no! some one is coming what do i do? Gabbi stands there alone with Zoey laying on the floor helpless as she hears small footsteps coming toward the door. The room is pitch black and there is no place to hide. One small window is in the corner of the room but there might not be enough time to reach it with the clutter holding up Gabbi's movement. Gabbi scurries threw the room trying to find the closet to hide in and when she does and it opens a pile of clothes and games and toys falls on her. Zoey's mom enters the room where she finds Zoey lying there helplessly and in the right corner of the room a heap of clothes on the floor with movement under them. Gabbi is caught with her bright red bloody hands as if she showered in blood and the murder weapon, which was a frying pan, laying next to Zoey and had Gabbi's fingerprints on the handle.

Free Write

Okay so basically today has been okay... The only bad thing is that i had to sit in the seminar room because of the writing test. I was in there for an hour sitting doing nothing at all! We had to sit in silence and I was so hungry and bored, and i missed math class. I love math! Psycology was fun though because we have been talking about adolecense and that is my favorite stage to discuss. We were talking about the different effects if teenagers and why they do the things they do. Also, we made a big chart about what influences teens. We basically all agreed that peers, media, technology influence what teenagers do. And of course creatvie writing is amazing i love to blog and spend time on the computer. Blogging really helps say what you cannot. I will say last night i was very stressed otu and was not in the mood for people making jokes. I found a limo and got a quote and its a ford escalde and its only $1200 for 6 hours! Which is amazing and i got stressed because one of my friends told me that he didnt knwo him and his date were going and my other friend was not sure whether or not they were going! I was going crazy and got mad and got off. I didn't mena anything by it just i cannot talk to people when im mad and stressed, but thank god everything has worked out!

Fried Green Tomatoes

1) Ninny's stories inspired Evelyn to do so much for herself and others. Evelyn finally stood up to her husband and acted like a real person or how Evelyn would say it "Tawanda". She became more sure of herself and was not afraid to be who she really is. She began working out and not letting herself get any fatter than she already was. 2) The outer frame story is when Ninny was telling Evelyn about her story and it includes everything that was going on between Evelyn and her husband, and what Evelyn did for herself. The main characters are Ninny, Evelyn, Evelyn's husband. 3) The inner frame story is all the flash backs. The story about Idgie and Ruth, that is the inner frame story. The main characters are Idgie, Ruth, Big George, Frank Bennett, Sispys, Buddy, Buddy jr. 4) What is ironic about Frank Bennett's death is that Sipsy would be the last person you would expect to kill Frank Bennett, she is a simple black women that obeys orders. 5)I think my favorite vignette was the food fight in the kitchen with Idgie and Ruth. The way they described the food fight every last bit of the food being thrown! It was amazing! 6)Buddy's Death: Buddy was frantically running across the railroad to catch sweet Ruth's hat. He thought nothing could stop him, especially while he was trying to impress her. On the bridge above Idgie and Ruth watched carefully not taking their eyes off for a second. The hat blows in the wind moving father away from the bridge where Idgie and Ruth have not taken their eyes off of him. Standing above laughing suddley as Buddy runs another 10 feet to finally grab the hat off the tracks. What he does not realize is that where he stuck his foot, was in between the tracks. His foot would not budge one bit, he keep tugging and tugging at it. Finally he turned around and gave a small grin and a wave not expressing any worries. When he turned back around he continued to tug until.... he heard a train whistle and he began to worry and rush to get his foot out! He had on long black boots that tied up from the middle to the top and it would take a minute to get them untied. Buddy tired and tried to go as fast as a lion, but just as he was about to pull his foot out, the train crushed his helpless body and did not have a chance to be removed from the tracks. Idgie tired to run down to the train track in a frightful panic but the townsmen held her back and all the heard was he yelling " BUDDY!!"

Journal #4

So i thought my computer did not save my work to journal 3 and i was so unhappy. :( But i went back into edit posts and it was there! yay for me! So i was just thinking about my past dance experiences and all the fabulous things i have gotten to do just because of dance! I made so many friends and learned a lot that some of my friends in colorguard were jealous of. I danced for nine years and i remember my first recital. I started when i was 7 years old and i was in ballet, tap, and jazz... i think. For ballet we were doing The Beatles song "Let it be" till this day that song gets on my nerves from hearing it over and over again when i was little! For tap we were doing "Boogie Woogie Bugle Boy" which i love that song! And if i remembered what we did for jazz i would mention it too. We were at our first recital and I was nervous but excited to be performing for my family. I wanted to show off everything i had learned this year and prove to my mom that i really do love dance and I want to stay with it. Ms. Kelly my dance teacher added a cartwheel into our tap dance while we have our bugles in our hand, and at every practice i did it right. I knew what i was doing and did not under estimate myself. I went out confident and proud hitting every sound so the dead silence audience could hear everything. We got the cartwheel and it was my turn to go, i went and my bugle went flying out of my hands on the the floor of the stage, but i did not stop i kept going pretending like i had my bugle in my hand like we practiced in class. Ms. Kelly was so proud of me, and after it all happened and we were off stage we laughed about it all!

Journal #3

I was thinking about different blog topics and thought, i can write about when i moved from Florida to North Carolina. That was the most stressful move ever! I had already started seventh grade and even had a great boyfriend! The summer before my dad was working a lot up here and my mom even flew up here to "see" my dad. What we did not was that they were already looking at houses. When my dad came hoem one weekend he told us we were going up to North Carolina for a week to visit! I was like why?.... I was twelve years old and had my own opinion on things and understood a lot more, yet i didnt understand my parents at this time! When we arrived in North Carolina the next morning we went to "the shop" and met my dad's co-workers. Well one spilled and told my sister and I that we are going to love it up here! We were so confused, so we asked mom and dad what was going on and they told us they want my dad to transfer his job to up here. I was only twelve and did not really know what to think. But automatically Staci hated it,I didnt blame her. My mom took another visit up here without us to look for a house, I stayed with my grandma because my brother would not be home but then i had to go with my sister to her friends house because my grandma was going on vacation. The trip up here was stresfull, because it was early in the morning and very hot outside! we had 2 dogs with us and three cats, and every animal was very unhappy! The cats were in the back meowing and hissing at each other which was amusing. We were into Georgia and suddenly smoke starts flying from the trailers tire and my dad could not really see what was going on but my mom called and told him he need to pull over. So we did, and guess what, one of the tires blew out and we were standing there in the sun and heat along side of a busy highway not knowing if or how we are going to get it fixed. We called a UHAUL place and they told us an hour. We could not believe it, we were stranded in the middle of know where on a busy highway with everything we moved with! Finally someone arrived an hour later to fix our tire and get us back on the road. We were pulling into our driveway at midnight exactly, but i do remember my dad waking me up too see how pretty the lake was. I was so tired the next day, but was still anxious to start making friends because i was so tired of unpacking by the 3rd day!

Journal #2

My Most Embarrassing Moment My most embarrassing moment would have to be one day last semester i was up in Hickory with my friend Justin and we went to the mall before i had to go get my nephew at daycare. Well I was all excited cause i was driving and i thought i knew everywhere i was going, but apparently not! We left the mall at 4:45 and i started driving out of the parking lot thinking i knew where i was going.. boy was i wrong! I drove on the road by Zaxby's and went pretty far down, but i realized its not the right road. So, i turned around thinking yet again i knew where i was going, and i went to the road over by Micheal's and all those other places. Yet again, i was wrong and started freaking out and crying! Justin was in the passenger seat laughing at me!!! I could not believe him! So i called my dad up and he told me to just get on I-40 and drive till i get to the road, which the name has slipped my mind! So i continued to drive and got onto I-40 and drove til i reached the exit! I looked at Justin and told him if he ever mentioned this to anyone he would die, but I didn't really mean die! Finally i reached the daycare and got Austin. That day i was late picking up my mom by fifteen minutes and i got in trouble and she accused me of something that i did not do! She would not let me explain to her what happened even though my dad tried to vouch for me.

Journal #1

This week has been kinda of an up and down week for me. I have had my good days and bad days all week, and along with not feeling well its been great. This week was my moms brithday so yesterday i cooked dinner and that was hard because i was watching my nephew too! He ran off and made a mess in our bathroom and i had to clean it up!!! He has gotten so big though! and he is almost two, will be in two weeks! I have to say school has kept me pretty busy, especially creative writing and early childhood education, which is my college class and its not that easy. We just started a new course in Early childhood which is heath, safety and nutrition! Which i hope we get to eat because thats always fun. My teacher has actually become really strict this time because she would let us get away with anything! I have to say i am having alot more fun in creative writing then I thought it would be! Im really enjoyign everythign we have to do in this class especially the blogging and i hope we keep it up( hint hint mrs. dunigan!) The only bad thing is, is that i dont really go anywhere and dont spend time with my friends casue all of my friends are in winterguard, but hopefully i will have a job soon and be able to make money and save up for New York! There really was no point tp this journal just to say things that i dont normally talk about! Next journal will actually have a topic and be about somethign interesting!

Snapshot- Favorite Person

My favorite person is my grandma, she is just always there for me. Anytime i need her she will be on the phone with me just talking and explaining everything! One moment, a snapshot I will remember is from this summer when i arrived in Florida and I saw my grandma for the first time in three years. I remember the intense emotion and just every little thing about the minuscule moment it was. As I was walking through the long, wide terminal in the West Palm Beach, Florida airport , I could not contain my excitement especially it being so long since I had seen her. The airport was filled with business people coming and going, it was as noisy as our lunchroom. People were talking on cell phone, you could hear the televisions coming from the restaurants and bars, and just people talking to others. I could smell the cinnamon from Cinnabun, which made my mouth water just thinking of the taste so sweet and cinnamony, as you could tell i was pretty hungry! As i was walking towards the end of the terminal, I was gripping tightly my pink jansport backpack, along with clutching onto my pink purse tightly. I kept getting closer to where she was waiting for me, and I was about at a slow jog because i could not contain the excitement i felt. I arrived finally at the end of the terminal still clutching my purse and backpack, and looked to the right and saw her standing there in the same type of clothes she has always worn. A white shirt the tightens at the bottom and has a flowery design on it with her blue jean like pants that are a little lighter than denim and her white slip on shoes. I turned to look at her for a minute, the went running into her arms clutching tightly, but not too tightly so i would not hurt her! I almost started to cry because it had been so long, yet she had not really changed much, but I have on the inside and outside!