Becca's Blog

Journal 1

Okay SO I guess time to do journal number 1. Well this week started off bad but it has gotten better amazingly.This class I have actually enjoyed this week because we have been spending time in the library researching for our historical fiction story. And i know thats what I am suppose to be doing now but most of the websites I want to get on wont let me because of st.bernard!!!!!!:-p I have also been busy drawing on Jenny's paper which is very entertaining and if you intrested ask her to see the paper!!! In Pschology we wached a movie calle without a paddle and i love that movie. its such a funny movie. I have seen it many times before but I did not really remember. Oh and yesterday I got my prom pictures they are amazing because I am amazing haha jk. Also yesterday, Charlie and I broke up because of me leaving for college til about November and not being able to come home ever. So we just broke up yesterday and I am actually okay with it cause we kind of acted more like friends then we did boyfriend/girlfriend so. Yesterday was fun too because after dinner my sister wanted ice cream so we went into mooresville and got cold stone and went to target for awhile and we wanted a volleyball net but they did not have any and i was very upset! I want one for graduation because i want to have friends over and actually have something to do while they are at my house and my mom use to play volley ball and i want to beat her at her own game. I also want a soccer ball just to kick around because i use to play soccer and i love to play! Ugh I am so bored and i should either be workign on my book talk or reseraching... but i kinda dont want to do either because I have senioritis BAD!!! Okay time to do something in class this was just a side thign to do! Later!

Journal 3-that did not post

Okay so I am really getting tired of my computer because when I tell it to do something it does the opposite!!!! I finish my fairy tale after the horrifying hail storm at my house that scared me so bad! I swear if it does this at graduation I will be so mad!!! I actually am looking forward to graduating and leaving my house! I will miss my bed but thats about it! Everything will come with me up there! My family will be here and it will just be amazing! Also I am really bored and Sunday on my "break" from typing my 8 page story i found an awesome website that you can like play games and stuff! I love that kinda stuff it called cartoondollemporium.com, Its a pretty amazing website to be on when you are just bored. Another great website for random games in grab.com. It has every game you could ever want!!!! I get bored during first period up in the computer lab at gaston and play random games so i do not have to listen to my teacher there sometimes! Speaking of amazing things, i hate to brag(jenny) but my teeth look amazing with no braces! I love how they turned out. i was actually nervous to see how they came out but I am very pleased. I actually got to eat corn on the cob tonight! its been two years since then and everything and i get to eat anything and everything! Right now I am just sorta pleased with everything now if graduation and my brothers wedding would get here then i would really be ready to leave for college! This program at college will be so amazing, and i am really looking foward to meetign new people!

Journal uno!!!!

Okay so i actually have something fun and exciting to write abou tthis time not just something random like the others! Okay so this past Saturday I went to my boyfriends house for the first time and we had so much fun! When i first go there and i was walking beside charlie his mom was just like," wow! your short." I just laughed because that is always the first thing people say to me when they meet me. As soon as we got inside we sat down in the living room with his mom and we talked while playing guitar hero 3 on Wii. I love guitar hero it is just such an amazing game. Afterwards we played Wii sports and he killed me in everything since it has been since january since I played. He told me we should go in his room after that and watch a movie. And of course when i walked in there scrubs was on which is his favorite TV show. We shut that off and put on this movie called out cold or something like that and it was pretty funny even though we really didnt watched it because we were too busy talking. Then he put on this comedien that was a ventriliques* and he was hilarious. In between all that we went out to the store to go get gas for his older brother then came back and continued. We were sitting in his room when at like 815 his mom comes in there freaking out saying," were under a tornado warning come outside and look!" Well i dont do well with thunderstorms so i automatically start freaking out, what is funny is that Charlie and I were just talking about it and he knew just by the look on my face that i was freaked! So we went outside and looked. We went down the one of their friends house to get in the basebmenrt because her son who is an EMT told us too! so we waited down there til about 930 and it was all over by then. We started another movie after that and then half way into it she wanted to take me home sooo.... i went home :(

Journal 2

Okay so latley all I have been doign in my free time is texting Charlie my boyfriend of one week! YAY! I am so happy because I am over all this stupid drama in my life and cannot wait to get rid of it for good. Charlie has just made me so happy and I mean i have known him for awhile because my best friend Shana dated him and I never thought of him like that even though i thought he was cute. After New York we just I dunno talked a lot more, because in New York on out cruise me and him danced, together, closely but I just thought it was for fun. Even then i started likign him. He is just so much fun and treats me so well. Staurday I'm goign to his house for the first time because last weekend we did not hang out, and we are going to have so much fun. He has WII with so many games and we are just going to watch movies and just be together! I know it weird to say after only a week of being in a relationship how much we do liek each other but its different because we have known each other for awhile before this. The only thing that has alreayd made me mad is that is older brother who is in my grade is just bugging him about datign me when i don' t even talk to him anymore, but charlie is going to take care of it. This week was an okay week except for yesterday because my sister is so stupid and told my mom that she would pick me up from school yesterday because my mom had another workshop and then when i got in the car she told me she could not pick me up and i was os mad. i was yelling at her and when i told my mom she said i had a right to be mad. But i have to get off because i have other things to do.

Journal 1

Something that really buggs me is how I don't look my age and people always are makign fun of that because i am short and just look young. It bugs me because I get it just about everyday and yes i am a senior and no I don't look like it but get over it and dont take your issues out on me just because i am short and older than you think I am. I actually like that way I am because I can do things others cannot. Like still play on the playground at Mcdonalds, I might be taller than the sign but i still do it because i can. I can walk through doorways without hitting my head! I acrually think its funny when guys do that. I can climb up faster and i can definatley run faster than most people. I love that because then i can get away when i make people mad! :D Height, weight, looks whatever they should not matter. People should not judge others without knowing them. I really do hate that and that is a major pet peeve. Do not judge me do not judge other people just bug off until you know the person. The outside is not everything, the inside counts more because its how you treat a person. Like the old syaing goes Treat someone the way you want to be treated. I know i can be mean sometimes and vindictive but i do it out of love and my friends dont care because they think it is so funny and they just know who I am and how much love I really do have inside me. Just do nto piss me off because i might be short but i could do some damage if I wanted too.

Journal

Okay so i need to write because i i know i have been being whiny lately in all my classes. Its not senioritis i don't think... but its because i do want to leave this place but I guess im scared too. I'm going to miss seeing all of my normal friends especially the ones that are still going to be here and not even off at college. I have made so many good friends especially joining the band but even in this class, i came into it knowing few people and I'm coming out with new great friends especially Jenny because we are so much alike. I mean today when mrs. D said," Becky you really came back from break whiny." i knew i did because that meant we only had 9 weeks to go and we were done. I really like this class cause we do so little but it seems like so much and i have really enjoyed it. When Mrs. D told us to stop reading today and i didn't want to( for once) and then i was being loud and complaining, i actually felt like crying because in college they don't care what you do there, I mean i just started tearing up but my book was funny enough to stop me! Which off topic i finished it tonight and it was so sad at the end because the characters in my book have so much freedom and do what they want and then they all split off and graduate... i really don't have any friends like that. I think the only one I will really be dying to see when I leave is Justin just because he has always been there for me. Not as much this year because we had a really rough time this year with each other and everything going on but still I love him and he just always been there when i needed him but now he won't be because he will be moving on too. I don't want all this to happen just yet because unlike everyone else who has a summer i don't i have school to attend at Western because i cannot take tests and did horrible on my SAT's so i have to do a summer program... I was just talking to my friend Jesse who i love him as a friend so much cause he is just there for me but he just told me that people their freshman year miss what they had in High school so they come home every weekend. You need to stay there and go home on breaks. Once u are in college you will realize how much you do not miss high school. Jesse is good for advice! And right now i am avoiding HW as always for psychology. SO i think I'm done for now I think y last words are going to be a quote for Dr. Seuss out of my book sooo:"Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened."

Classwork Journal

Okay so i guess i have to do it just becasue this is class but ya know this is not fair because we already have to 4 journals a week we should protest this... Okay so so i love the moie, play, whatever Hairspray. That is my new obsession because it has been monkeys for forever!

But hairspray is just amazing! I think we should all get up and dance to hairspray! YAY! and Im so excited because my mom ordered me the movie BUT the deluexe edition! AHHH im never going to shut that movie off when it comes! I mean i order the movie on Friday and watched it like 8 times within that period of 24 hours :D

Okay anyways back to reality, This weekend really sucked because my cat died for no reason, she was only 2 and 1/2 and i was so distraught and ugh all day saturday my nephew was like, "Wheres sock?" Ugh i hated this weekend just because of that and i mena i was so upset i like layed around the house all day sunday until they made me go clean my room.. and then i almost forgot to do my homework so i did everythig i had to Sunday after i cleaned my room.

But today I guess went okay, it was just another normal day except at lunch my friend said somethign to make me laugh and i laugh like spastically and when i did i gues smy mouth was open so big that she could see my tonsils... it was the weirdest thing in the world! We all cracked up and the other person i was sitting with was just like tryign laughing with your mouth closed... and that did not work out well. It was a pretty okay day not bad not good just, okay.

Journal 4

Okay so last night i got to go out with Justin and everything to help him babysit. well let me tell you what happened. The lady was suppose to be home at 8 so my mom said fine i could go and everything AND ride with justin. Well big mistake because when justin called her at 750 to see when Zoey needed to go to bed she told him then 830 well i said okay just because it would only be 9 when i got home so yeah whatever. Well at 830 she calls Justin back and tells him between 9-915 she would be home, i got very frantic because i knew that i was going to be in trouble. At 915 she still was not home and i was so scared, i did not call my mom to tell her that it was going to be later that what i had said. She finally got home at 930 and Justin and I were so mad because it was school night and i knew i was going to be in trouble. I got in the car and Justin started it and of course... the low fuel light came on, we looked at each other and laughed! So i called my dad and told him that she had just gotten to the house and then his low fuel light came on... all he said was see you when you get home, that was weird i thought. We stopped for gas then continued on to my house. We just talked and laughed and was kinda ignoring the situation till i had to face it. I didn't really get in trouble but it felt like i was walking the plank! OKay class time at Gaston! ugh... BYE

Journal

Okay so i have no idea how many journals i did over the break because everyday i had something to do! ( that was a change for me) But this journal is going to be about my amazing NY adventure. Lets start with Day 1 for this Journal because everyday is going to be a separate journal because we did so much. 3:00 am, we are meeting in the band room everyone wanting to go back to sleep, but the buses were late. We were suppose to leave at 3:30 am but I don't think we did. Mr. Underwood starts calling us by seniority which is nice because then we get to pick our own seat. The bus rolls out of the NLHS parking lot and we are on our way to NYC! I really didn't know what to expect of NYC all i knew is that i was tired and need to close my eyes. It was not the easiest to sleep on that bus just because it was a bus... moving... and we had something exciting to look forward too. Apparently we stopped in Mt. Airy to switch bus drivers and i missed the whole thing. I did not even feel the bus stop (lol). But then we were back on the road again. I woke up at about 6:45 am to see that everyone is asleep and i had a text message from one of my friends. I was just chilling listening to music waiting for breakfast, man I am hungry now, and i was so excited when i saw Dunkin Donuts, and that sounds good right now. We took about a 45 minute break to eat and everything then back on the buses to finish our trip. I loved it because the first movie we watched was Enchanted!!! Great movie just because i said it was, haha. I actually stayed awake for that. Of course we finished that movie in no time and they put on the best musical ever HAIRSPRAY! I loved that movie and i was so excited to go see it on Broadway. The movie was amazing but i was ready for lunch. We were going through PA. and i was talking about Hersey Park and the rumor i heard that it was closing ( ALL LIES), Then the bus driver announced while we were sitting in traffic in PA that we will be stopping at Chocolate world to eat lunch!!! i was so excited i jumped around like a crazy fool! Let me tell you i was in Chocolate Heaven! That was the best place ever and the trip was already off to a great start. we stopped for about an hour because the bus driver had too, the rules. Ill write later i have to go to class.... ugh

New York

New York

Spring break round 1.. DING!

Amazingly i have lasted threw these long two days already. I have been so tired last night I couldn't enjoy staying up late because we have already done so much AND theres more to come. Yesterday, Mom and I went to Charlotte and shopped ALL day... We went to an educational store that was amazing, its called Lakeshore Educational. It was huge and it had everything you wanted in there. It was fun because my moms theme or her classroom next year is Jungle but mostly monkeys, so we found just about everything with monkey's on it. Monkeys are the theme of my room at home so I was enjoyign loooking for everything she needed, which will soon be passed down to me. :D We went to Michaels and i got a fuzzy poster... which i collect and i have a ton of them but this one is new. :D Then we went to Target but just looked real quick at the dollar spot, and after headed over to A.C. Moore. We found my prom frame and it is so beautiful! Afterwards we went to Wide shoe wearhouse for mom to get her a pair of shoes for my brothers wedding in May! She got real lucky because she would have never found shoes like she did there. She also took me out to eat lunch after all that adventure, We went to this great place called Salsa and they had wonderful mexican food. When we got home i just kinda cooled out and went outside to swing on my nephews swing set. I did so guard work, listened to music and just enjoyed the beautiful weather we are having.... Ugh Ill write later i need to go help mom now... Laundry sucks, i dont know if i can do laundry in college!

Are you feelign low? Why?

Yes, of course i am feeling low. I was really lookign foward to New York and beign able to be with all of my friends especially because i dont get to see them much anymore. But who i want to be with and hang out with will not want to hang out with mea nd it makes me upset because i lov ehima dn his family, but he will be with the chourus makign me jealous because i am. He use to only want to be with me and tell everyone he wanted to marry me but now he never talks to me of hangs out with me. Men are so stupid and confusing and ugh they just make me so mad. I know of three guys that i am very close to that actually treat gurls right and one i treated horrible .. Jesse, Michael, and Josh. They are such greta guys and jesse i treated horrible and the rest are just great friends that i know treat everyone right no matter what. okay enough guy bashign then being nice for now :D

What am i putting off right now???

I am putting off doing this blog...

Journal #3

I have to say I use the word regret scarcely because eveything that i have done and reality behind it has taught me something new. Lessons have been learned and things that I did then i will not do again. I learned to accept what i have then because you loose something that was just right for you. I lost something important to me and never understood what i had until i lost it. A lot of people say that they regret things from the past and want to go back in time but, i dont i wanted to be able to learn lessons and for once think for myself and not make the smae mistake in the future with new thigns that are brought to the table. I want to be able to see the bright side of things and not second guess myself on everything and in the end make the wrong choice anyways. In life you just have to go for it and do not look back on anything and especially be carefull how you use the word regret...

Journal #2

I feel the need to write a journal, besides that fact it is required, I am not in a good mood and writing right now is the only way i can express myself. Prom is going down the drain right now, we do not have our limo because of two people and it really pissed me off because his excuse is that he does not check his voice mail.... FREAKIN CHECK IT THEN! I really upset this is my senior prom I dont get to do what i want and now we probably won't have a limo all because of his stupidity! My senior prom is going to suck, which I sorta did ruin it with the person I wanted to go with. I am the only senior in our limo and we planned on having fun... I don't knwo if that is going to happen anymore. I am so stressed out all because of prom and it is still 4 weeks away! My dress is getting altered Thursday finally because it of course is my responisbility to call u pthe lady to get it altered when i barely have time to breath with everything i have to do to FINALLY leave for college. I have to say, Sunday June 22nd is goingto be the happiest day of my life because i finally leave my parents and all the stupid people in Lincolnton behind! GOODBYE! When i get out of college this is the last place i would come back to, i would move to Ohio in with my brother in sister before i go back home, or even back to Florida with my grandma or brother and almost fiance. I am so tired of it here and if i had a choice i would be out of here after graduation and be going to UF. I could only dream though. Three hours away will have to do for now because thats all I can afford.

Promp Generator- classwork

I remember when.... I remember when i did not talk to anyone for a whole week. Everyday i walked threw the halls silence and sat in class and never anwsered or responded to anything, even in english where all my friends were. My boyfriend, Jesse, at the time was real worried about me that i would do something that i regret, I never did. Everyday Jesse would check on me and just watch me to make sure. He never understood what i went threw that week especially since it was the last week before exams. I was upset because so much had happened that week. My best friends dad died of a heart attack, i am close with the whole family and it was really hard to hear her crying on the phone with me. I told her she needed to call me later because her mom needed her and she was scared and I understood that, yet I did not. I have never really had to deal with death because no one close to me had died. At the same time my great aunt was in the hosptial, she had been battling breast cancer, ovarian cancer, and one other type of cancer. She was very sick and week and two days later she died.She battled everything for thirty years, and it was really hard to hear that she was gone. I had not seen her in three yearsand i was so unhappy that i had to hear it from my step dad who did not even know her, he pissed me off that night. I think that entire week I did not sleep one bit. That was just a stressful week because that Thursday i found out I did not get captin like i had hoped and prayed for and i felt so bad,like i did not deserve it and was useless in guard and all during the season EVERYONE made me feel like that constantly. After i found out i felt guilty treating Jesse the way i did and it caused us to break up the week after. I hated the end of last year, I would freak out about the stupidest things, like a paper i did bad on in Ms. Orozs's and had to go back and redo when i did not understand anything. That was a week I remember very well, even though I wish I did not, that was the point in my teenage years that i went through my teenage crisis, and there are a lot of things i wish i did not do.

Journal #1

So i thought to myself, why not start early this week on my blog... So i am going to and not be lazy like normal. This weekend started off sucking, then it just got weird. Friday, i over heard two of my friends talking and one of them had lied to me about that night cause i was suppose to go babysit with him then he told me he wasnt going to. LIER! I was so mad at him, i was cussing up a storm and in a rampage of outrage that he would do that to me... even though it shouldnt really surprise me. So friday night i basically sat at home and did homework, wahooo.... and passed out at about 10 pm. Saturday.. what did i do. I slept in til about 1000 and then called my g(my grandma: its her nickname) and i actually made breakfast for me, mom, and staci(sister) I never do that. Mom and i did the food shopping saturday which was kinda weird cause im use to going on sunday but whatever. We got a bunch of stuff im going to need to NY which im so excited about. For lunch mom and i had ice cream sundaes from Dunkin DOnuts! YUMMY! then for dinner my sister and i went out and picked up chinese for them( Yuck) and Taco Bell for me! I had such a nutritional day! :D That night was kinda fun because we figured otu my hair style for prom and my brothers wedding! Its going to be so pretty. Today was just kinda of .. blah day just because i worked on my 1st period project this morning, then i went out to cookout to meet a bunch of my friends fro lunch and discuss prom stuff, then i get home and start getting weird Txts from one of my friends saying things but it wasnt him! I was so creeped out by that! Tonight we are celebrationg my nephews birthday with his Elmo cake that im going to be digging into! YAY! SO i think i did good today, im gettin alot accomplished, except the paper with the bulittien board for 1st period i dont want to do that. I might even start on my flip chart and the project we were suppose to do friday! YAY! and we get to blog this week! YAY! again

Journal #4

Okay so in Psycology we are studying teenage crisis, I thought this would be a great topic for my blog just because i have gone through so many. Mine is about a family memeber who joined the army and left right before my brithday, then left for Iraq 2 weeks before my birthday... Happy Birthday to me. My big brither Mike was always there for me and never left my side. he was my protector and the greatest brother because he always spoiled me! :D After 9/11 happened he realized he was nto going to go to college right away, so he joined the army in spite of everything that had happened. I did not want him to leave but he was 18 and it was his choice. I was so scared for him and never wanted him to leave my side and just be there for when i grew up. After he graduated he stayed the summer, but not long after that in August he left to train for the army. As if it was not hard enough saying goodbye to him, we were moving at the end of September! I was so mad at my parents because nothign new was going to happend, my dad was not getting a pay raise they just wanted him to transfer. Of course we were already into school and i even had a boyfriend that made me so happy! I fit in where i was at but NC was a completley different place. I felt like i was deserting my family in Florida. 7th grade year had gone by adn Mike was with a company called the Stryker Birgade. Which those are types of vehicles that are double armor plated. In july he recieved notice that his unit was being deployed in august. Two weeks before my brithday my mom flew to Washington state to sya goodbye but she would nto let me go with her... I was so upset even though i did recieve a call from him and a letter which sorta made me feel better!